About two weeks ago one of my worst fears came true: my photo was posted on a fat shaming page. “Project Harpoon” was a Facebook page dedicated to editing photos of fat women to make them appear slimmer, and then posting the edited version alongside the original photo. Their intent was supposedly to show what “could be” if these people lost weight. When I first found out that this page had posted my photo, I was devastated. I spent hours scrolling through the comments, reading and re-reading all of the cruel things people had to say about me. Through the comments I learned that I have a pig nose, I’m large enough to have my own gravitational pull, and I’m plagued with an uncontrollable urge to eat all inanimate objects in my immediate vicinity (among some other comments that are too disgusting to repeat). It took me a while to decide to speak up about what happened to me, because at first I was terrified of being targeted again. However I realized that it’s important for me to talk about this. I want to show other fat people that I am okay. What I care most about is in setting a positive example for other fat people. Something like this might feel catastrophic; but it doesn’t have to be. I’ve been doing plus size OOTDs on tumblr like this one for a few months now, and it’s been so empowering. For a long time I thought I couldn’t enjoy fashion because, as a bigger girl, I had restrictions on what was “acceptable” for me to wear. However when one of my OOTDs was used for Project Harpoon I wasn’t sure if I was going to continue to upload them. Two weeks went by and I finally decided that I wasn’t going to let other people ruin something I loved to do. I will not be shamed into silence. I will not hide. I am posting this in the heat of all of the Nicole Arbour bullshit going on right now because I know that some of you need a reminder that you’re worthy of love, respect, and kindness; both from yourself and from those around you. Keep doing what makes you happy. #Iambodypositive and you can be too.
Una foto publicada por Samantha April (@aspiring.fires) el